Wednesday, August 3, 2011


My little baby isn't so little.  She's an adorable 4 month old!  She smiles, she coos, she giggles, she grins, she makes a car noise with her mouth, she scoots (not really crawls), and she definitely communicates even though she doesn't speak. 

I've had major anxiety about this month.  It's finally here.  In just a little under two weeks, I'll be leaving my baby with someone else. I don't like it.  However, knowing that I will be supplying my baby with my milk, has helped a little.  Giving her a little bit of mom to make it through the day, and me having to work for her a little bit during the day helps my mind set a lot.

She is very attached to me, and it makes it near impossible for me to do anything.  While it worries me a little about her starting daycare, I know it's probably what she needs to adapt to new people and new environments.  She even gives my husband a good fight when she stays with him.  Of course, deep down, I don't hate right now that she's so attached to me, but I know for her to thrive she's going to have to become more indepenent and learn to trust new people (and her daddy too!).

I just need a few prayers in the coming weeks.  I'm blessed with the privilege to work.  Yes, in this economy it is a blessing and privilege to have a job.  I don't want to leave my sweet girl, but I want to be able to provide her with all I can.  I want her to be able to get the best healthcare, I want her to have the healthiest baby food, I want her to have cool things to play with.  I also want her to know she's mommy's number one.  So, my goal is to leave work at work (at a decent time) and when I'm at home, I'm not a teacher, I'm just Reagan's mom.   Easier said than done, but I'm ready to jump in.  It's going to be just fine :)